death to self expression
a to z this is what destroys me
All the times I wanted
But never took the chance
Created a hole inside me
Death to self-expression.
Everyone wanted me to change
Forcing me to confirm,
Giving in to those demands
Hurts like hell.
Inside, I'm breaking
Just hoping to find
Kind and understanding humans with
Love for who I am inside.
Masking is all I know,
Never sure who deserves my soul.
On the outside
Perfection, yet
Quiet thoughts destroy my creativity.
Regrets fill me.
Sometimes it's too much,
Taking a step back
Ultimately saved me.
Visions of my life come to me
Where do I go from here?
X-rays show the hole slowly closing,
Yes, I can express myself again.
Zen.
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🥀 CA