it was gloomy today

a poem about the shades of life

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it’s gloomy today
so i got the urge
to express myself with these words.
the sun isn’t yet up
it’s blocked from view
as grey opal clouds spread on through.
the blue sky that i love to watch,
it might not be your favorite
but to me
it calms the energy inside me.
the blues and whites turn to grey and black
like a rainbow of darkness showing the path.
the path of change
the path of self-destruction
the path avoided by most
it might be hard but at least it’s rewarding.
rewarding for me not for you.
i promise this is me putting myself before you
your words, your hate, your expectations can take a hike
i know what’s best for me
this is MY LIFE.
if i want a haunted house to call home,
i’d be moving tomorrow.
if i wanted to grow under a gloomy, wet sky
i’d be living up north with some vampires by sundown.
just because it’s dark, doesn’t make it wrong.
if my shade of life is darker than yours, you could be thanking me
for taking on the struggles you got to avoid.
but just because i am dark and you are light
doesn’t mean we aren’t alike.
we see the world on different sides of the same coin.
some would call that fate.
i’d call it purposeful
but all i know is
it was gloomy out today,
and clearly, i needed these words out of me.

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